Dear friend(s) and family,
Hi.
It’s me.
I know it looks like I’ve been avoiding you lately, and that’s not a nice thing to admit in the interest of keeping a relationship, but I’ve gotten so fed up with everything that really couldn’t even begin to talk about it and make any sense. So I won’t.
I think I don’t even care what it’s about, I’m just sick of pretending things. I only ever look forward to being alone, because I don’t have to pretend around myself, d’you know? No? That’s ok, I’m not going to pretend to care.
Because I’m sick. of. pretending.
I’m sick of pretending that it doesn’t bother me when you say that.
I’m sick of pretending that I don’t see where you’d like to go with this.
I’m sick of pretending that you’re not dodging me when I don’t suit your purposes.
I’m sick of pretending that I enjoy spending time with you because I don’t seem to have better options.
I’m sick of pretending that I’ve nothing to complain about, just because you think I have no right to complain.
I’m sick of pretending that I know you’re right, as sick as I am of doing what you think is right.
I’m sick of pretending there’s a point to this.
I’m sick of pretending that I don’t want to bash your head in with a blunt object every time you come near me and/or speak.
I’m sick of pretending I’m not wasting away while I keep trying to walk on eggshells to keep all of you twits thinking well of me.
I am absolutely sick and tired of some of you and come to think of it, I’m not sure that I can stand myself all that much either; so there is our big mystery.
Now, maybe it’s not you and it’s me. Or maybe it’s you and it’s not me. Or maybe it’s just the fact that nobody can be honest at all in this stupid retarded piece of shit world. I don’t know, I don’t care. I’m just sick of it. 
Because fuck you, that’s why.
Sincerely,
X.
P.S. Don’t be stupid. Don’t be scared, don’t be sorry for me, and don’t be offended. After all, you don’t know if I’m talking about you or not. Take it as it is; I just required some time off and possibly still do to some extent.
Let’s all just pretend that nothing was ever said.
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